HOWL: Ideal TF

(HOWL, Projected to be released 2018) 

My entry for 's TF TOURNAMENT

The theme was, 'What's your ideal werewolf transformation? What would you do to make it better?' Upon reading that I chuckled to myself because the whole round was a big contradiction. For me, there's no such thing as an 'ideal' transformation that's PG-13. Werewolves are HORROR movie monsters, they're SUPPOSED to be rated R. If they're not, all of the sudden they become super heroes saving the day-or night- or some teenage girl is dating them in a movie. What made werewolves 'cool' in the first place is the fact of how threatening they really are; the idea of someone in society being forced, drastically and painfully, into an outcast that threatens to destroy everything he/she holds dear to them. The entire concept of the werewolf was about man's uncontrollable, incurable, darkest side mixed with, during it's origination, a volatile hysteria similar to John Carpenter's "The Thing" (How do you know who the bad guy is when it could possibly be your closest friend? It's not like you're going to be able to tell who it is when they're covered in fur and have a muzzle.)
    It's called a CURSE for a reason; imagine living your life knowing you change EVERY full moon (that's 12-36 times a year) and put everyone you loves' life at risk each time you change; imagine knowing that your offspring or anyone you fall in love with(that's a euphemism for have sex with) will ultimately suffer the same curse as you; imagine the fear of being driven out by society, locked away or killed because of a fate you can't escape; imagine the guilt AND survivor's guilt you feel every time you realize you killed someone and then imagine that that 'someone' was your best friend; now imagine the feeling you'd have when you realize the remains of your friend or the victim are still sitting in your stomach when you wake up in unfamiliar, blood-splattered territory; OH, but you still have class or work that day and you're late because, as far as anyone knows, you're human. Still think it's cool to be a werewolf?  
    
I rant this because about 2 weeks ago I had a dream that I was Allen. (The guy in this artwork and the main character of HOWL) Now keep in mind I've had plenty of dreams where I was on the WRONG end of a werewolf attack and one instance when playing Skyrim I was actually scared by a werewolf for the first time, but this was the very first time I actually WAS the werewolf, going through the transition. I remember the scenario was that the transformation was about to occur and I had absolutely no place to change, so me and another character (Who I won't reveal at this time) were trying to frantically find a place for me. It was terrifying because you knew whoever was around you was as good as dead and there were a lot of people my dream self cared about. (I say 'dream self' because they too, were characters in the story) 
It's hard to describe because I never felt really anything like it. The mix of emotions were intense, Scared, Angry, Frustrated, Regretful, Pain, Sadness and Panic all at the same time. I distinctly remember my thoughts: 
"Why is this happening to me?"
"I don't want to change. I don't want to be a werewolf."
"Why do I have to be alive? If I was dead no one would get hurt." 
"Have to find a place."
"Why the fuck do they exist?"
"Someone help me." 
"Shit shit shit shit." 
    When I finally started to change, I fell to the floor. In dreams you get muffled pains; just your brain guessing what it'd feel like if a certain thing happened (Like when you get shot you only feel a pinch or the sensation of someone beating on you.) I saw black claws jut out from under my fingernails and scrape the floor (It stung) but I got scared. It's funny because I was afraid of them but I knew they were MY claws. Immediately I called out frantically for the 'classified' character that was with me; I wanted him there with me as some sort of moral support to make the transition easier because I REALLY didn't want to be alone, but at the same time I knew that he had to get away from me, to safety. Then I woke up because by this time my heart was racing too fast and I was full of adrenaline. (My mind takes things too seriously sometimes lol) 
That was when I fully accepted the fact that even as a self-proclaimed 'werewolf-enthusist' it would truly suck to actually BE a werewolf in a realistic R rated world. I'll stick to watching them instead heh. 
ANYWAYS 
Many transformation fans know that werewolves are the 'bread and butter' of the tf genre; the roots that started it all, so it's easy to tell which werewolf story out there is either written by someone who's actually writing a WEREWOLF story, or someone who's just writing TRANSFORMATION FANTASY. There's a big difference because the latter is usually executed poorly.  

ABOUT THE ARTWORK

    Well for my 'ideal tf' in a PG-13 format in one page... -.-  Here you have Allen going through his excruciating 'change'. If it were to TRULY be 'ideal', he'd be naked and there'd be a lot more blood-with more pages- just to put emphasis on the 'man turning into beast' concept but I suppose this'll do. What's ideal about it is the fact that it's not his first 'change', he already KNOWS he's a werewolf and has taken measures, (Through means that are classified at this time) to lock himself up but, silly humans, not even titanium and silver chains can hold a werewolf for very long, especially an R rated one. ; )  
What would be worse? Breaking free while you're in werewolf form OR while you're still in transition and that ultimate look of "Oh Shit." comes across your face/muzzle? 
I love Allen though, he's like a son I always torture lol. 

Big shout out to we've debated 'Werewolf Theory' for YEARS and we practically have it down to a science. 

HOWL is projected to be released in 2018

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